Away

Am currently entering Day 5 of my 12 days break. What have I done so far, attended a wedding, gym, attended playschool with my nephew, brought parents out, movie with parents, spent loads of time with parents... That's what I had done for the past 4 days :)

Tuesday, 29th April 2008, I'll be away.. for 7 days... A dive trip to Pulau Weh off Banda Acheh.. Am excited, overpacked and can't wait to go back to the waters... :) Will be back on 7th May with updates from the trip... and pictures... As for now, the wedding photos I have attended at Perhentian. Enjoy... Till then... Ciao~~!!

p/s Please pray that there will be no tsunami or earth quake of any sort... :)

The "Moment"

As I grow up, I realized my contact and exposure with the opposite sex has increased greatly. I've known a lot of people in my life from both sexes and I used to joke that I'm closer with guys than those of my own sex is because I don't get them in giggling bunches and I can very well go to the ladies on my own, thank you very much~~!! But its also very liberating with guys, I can be clear and state very well what was on my mind and what I meant. Sometimes, we, girls, doesn't always say what we want because we fear to hurt the other person's feelings. So, in the end, it just makes the guys go round and round and round and end up more confused than ever. No wonder guys are always saying they don't know what women want.

But what I wanted to embark on here is the fact, the more contact and exposure you have with the opposite sex, there will always be the "moment". It is that "moment" where there is just that attraction between 2 people of the opposite sex. The one look and the chemistry is all there. However, it is just that instant of lust gripping us and the very moment before a kiss, before all the hope and dreams of being together clashing wildly in the head. Each "moment" will have us thinking and hoping that there is a chance to get together and be happily ever after. And that is where everything that can go wrong starts. But then, I've also learnt that, there will always be moments like these with other people. How we choose to go about doing with these moments are entirely one's own decision. I can go on having moments like with a lot of different people and at a lot of different places and at different phases of my life. But it doesn't mean I should give up what I have currently to pursue that one moment of lust.

Countdown

Another week had passed and what an amazing and tiring week it had been. This is the week where I heard good and bad news and this is the week I've been out till almost midnight for 3 nights for drinks and this is the week where I'm starting the countdown to my 12 days break starting from 25th April.

Tiring as this week might have been but it gave me a surprise. I got to know a colleague better and that was a surprise on its own. I mean, given the differences, it was just nice sitting down for drinks with this colleague talking about absolute nothing and everything. It goes to show sometimes, all it takes its just the time to know someone better. The surprising thing was, I'm actually happy to know this colleague of mine better for one, I realized that the corporate world can be a cruel place and heartless one but there will always be people in there that will still stand for what they believe is right. The second thing is, I appreciate the things around me more now. I realized that there are some life experiences that can't be exchanged and not matter what it is, be it good or bad, its part of us growing up. And also, I've learnt boys will be boys till they are 40 where they are man. Hmmm... I guess that explains my choice of guys :p

Character

Someone complimented me today. He said I am a character. As usual, me being me, I squinted and gave a quizzical look. Oh yea, typical Pei Jet you would say :p I mean, c'mon, a character? I was thinking, when you tell someone he/she has character it could be snobbish, weird or even mental. And this is the meaning of character from dictionary.com, character means "The combination of qualities or features that distinguishes one person." Now I understand what he meant by character. But anyhow, he further explained that I'm a character because I'm funny, nice to be with, open, a person that would be remembered and be missed and the smiles, and I'm different and I can't remember all of it (I think I might have missed out some or added some but the gist is there.) But hell yea, I was flattered and all I could do was smile and said thank you. There goes to show, I don't know my vocabulary well and I wouldn't know that I'm being complimented. But in the end, I'm touched at the words he used to compliment me and I'm more touched at the fact that he took the effort to tell it to me :) Thanks~~!!

On a retrospect, I remember that I had once said I want to leave this world a better place. I hope that every single person that I had crossed path with would remember me and would always remember me with a smile :) I hope when I leave this Earth, all those that know me, will recall me with a big laugh and a big smile. That would be enough for me know that at least, I left this place with people being happy and a smile on their face.

Of Opinions and Punishment

Just felt that I had to blog this.

"2 siblings are playing catch outside with a ball although there were numerous warnings from their parents not to. This is because the kids are still young and they are not aware of their surroundings and the possibility of breaking a window. But the older kid had pressured the younger kid to play and play they did. In one of the younger kid's swing, the ball wasn't caught by the older kid and "krang~~!!" A window was smashed. And the parents came running out. The kids were shocked and kept quiet. Dad came around and asked who caused it. Dad was furious. But both the kids remained silent. Dad was hell bent on finding out who did it. And he sent the younger sibling to the room and asked the older kid, before he could finished his question, the older kid without blinking an eye and answered the younger kid did it and insisted he doesn't have anything to do with it. Dad was surprised at the quick, selfish way the older kid answered. He had expected it to be a big time interrogation with hopes of not getting any answers. So he sent the older kid to the room and asked the younger kid, who did it. The younger kid started explaining about how they ended up playing catch and it was the younger kid who had caused the smashed window. Once again, Dad was surprised. This time, he was surprised at how honest the younger kid could be and how trusting he was of his older sibling.

In the end, Dad punished both siblings. Reason being, the older could have shown more loyalty as he is the mastermind and also, if he hadn't insisted on playing, the window would not have been smashed. He also punished the younger kid because whatever the circumstances they were in, there was no denying the younger kid smashed the window."

This is my take on the whole situation above. We can all push the blame to someone or somewhere and as we grow older, survival of the fittest comes to play. Why? Because we will have commitments and family of our own to care for and protect and anything that disrupts the balance will have to be fought. I remember someone once told me, when we first start working, we will be very emotional and we will talk loud and clear on loyalty and do the right thing. However, as we grow older, there will be more and more commitments and everyone will be fighting to protect their rice bowls. And this is where survival of the fittest comes into play. If there is anything that harms this rice bowl, it will mean that they can't feed a family, bills not paid and life will be a living hell and you can't give the best to your kids. So what the older kid had displayed is the very fact that he has been playing the game and he knows that he needs to stay in his parents' good favor. As for the younger sibling, he was also fighting for survival by painting the whole picture and by admitting the truth that he was in fact the culprit though he wasn't the mastermind. In the end, both had gotten punished.

But let's say there are 3 kids. The mastermind being the eldest, the culprit being the youngest and the middle is the one that is stuck in the middle to do as the eldest's bid and letting the youngest run. In this case, who is in the wrong or who is in the right? Who should be punished? Who should bear the responsibility? And would your views be different if I were to put an age to the 3 siblings, the eldest being 23 years old, the second 18 years old and the third 2 years old? Would they have known better given their age? And also, are the parents at fault?

A time that is mine

This thought just came across my mind when I was wondering why I needed my beer and why I needed to club. I had always wondered about the attraction of alcohol and the clubs with laser lights, loud music and the tight space filled with smoke. Then I realized it was never about the crowd or the dance or the loud music. Maybe it was a bit to do with the alcohol. To me, it had everything to do with just a little bit of time that belongs to me and me alone. With no deadlines to meet, no parents to worry about, nothing bugs my mind. Its just the me time spent without a single care, nary a single worry.

All in a day's work

I thought that I would have hung up my safety boots and helmet together with the construction site after I had switched career and to a more comfortable air-conditioned place. I must have grown accustomed to the comforts of life, for I've taken air conditioned rooms and offices and whatever modern gadgets that comes with it for granted.

Until a visit to the construction site, brought back memories of my time at a construction site complete with the mud, the dust, the concrete, the steels and also the Indonesians who stare at you as though they haven't seen another female in ages. And also the toilets. Ahhhh... At a construction site, one would be lucky to find a toilet let alone whether its clean or not. And that is something, I've taken for granted for a very long time. The clean sitting down toilet bowl with nary a sign of dirty boots and black floors and urine stained bowls. Yes, that was what I used to put up with.

But my day that day had started innocently, where I was in my usual work get up albeit a bit casual and my stilettos. Luckily, I've decided not to wear a skirt or a dress. However, after bringing a customer for a tour, he decided to see for himself how a WIP data center would be like. And hence, we were driven to the construction site. Mind you, the guys were in ties and shirts. Lucky, no suits :p

All of us took it all in stride and don on YELLOW boots. I'm kidding you not, imagine Phua Chu Kang, and that was how we all looked like. The guys at the construction site must have decided that they required some humor in life, for I could not in a 100 years imagine why would anyone spend the money on buying florescent yellow boots~~!! Funnily, the guys were really good sport. As for me, I had to give up my stilettos for YELLOW boots and without socks. My decision to tough it wasn't lost on most of the guys and it was all in good fun. We ended up taking pictures of ourselves looking silly in the YELLOW boots. I still I can't believe I don on yellow boots without socks and climbed up and down the unfinished construction site and I can't believe that I did it all in one day as a part and parcel of my job~!! Who knows what the day might bring next

My Teddies

Was surfing till I saw this and my heart melted.

Of Wedding Dinners and Hits and Misses

There's always hits and misses in our lives. Be it in work, in play or in love. And somehow or other, there will always be a wedding dinner to attend. Let me start on the wedding dinners first. I've just attended my first dinner this year. It was one of my best friend's dinner. She went to Sarawak, met a guy and hey presto, 2 years down the road, she has a kid and a loving hubby. Am I jealous? Hell yea. But then again, as I sat down at the table, it dawned on me that half the table occupants are either in some stable long term relationship, married or getting married. So it brings me to the hits and misses. We have all been hit with someone, somewhere, at sometime in our lives. Yet, after being hit, if we don't figure it out, it will turn into a miss. And yet other times, we missed it totally.

In wedding dinners, you will always find aunties and uncles asking when we are going to get married. I've found the best way to shock these nosy relatives into oblivion, by telling them, I can't legally marry my girlfriend. So I consider this a hit, a direct hit to the relatives. There are some that tells me, wedding dinners are fertile ground for singles to mingle. Somehow, I only feel that trying to meet new people at wedding dinners is kinda pathetic. And there you go, MISS number 1.

But to me, meeting up with friends I have lost touch with over the years is the best fun during dinner. Also, the laughters that you get with a bunch of girls, those are my precious moments. As we grew older, our lives have taken different paths and being able to sit down and gossip as though the years hasn't alter us shows that we are friends and true friends indeed.

Today, someone asked me when am I getting married and my response was, wait till I can get a permanent guy in my life, as I'm actively seeking one now. Immediately, all my friends erupted with their sarcastic remarks of yea yea yea, Actively looking for one indeed, introduce guys to you but you reject. In the end, their conclusion is I'm actively WAITING for a guy to appear magically in front of me. That made me sit up and realized that hell, I either be more sociable or I might just end up alone with just my work. For another question thrown to me was, what do I do on weekdays. My answer was work, work, work and yoga and work. Sounds quite pathetic and sad even to my ears. Sigh. And those are all misses. Missed out chances to meet people, missed out chances to be more happening and missed out chances to enjoy life.

So there you have it, the summary of my life and what goes on when I attend wedding dinners.