Three Times A Lady

"Thanks for the times
That you've given me
The memories are all in my mind
And now that we've come
To the end of our rainbow
There's something
I must say out loud
You're once, twice
Three times a lady
Yes you're once twice
Three times a lady
And I love you
I love you

When we are together
The moments I cherish
With every beat of my heart
To touch you to hold you
To feel you to need you
Theres nothing to keep us apart
You're once twice
Three times a lady
And I love you
I love you"

This is one song someone had told me about. I had loved this song a long time ago. But I haven't listen to this song for a long time and it was brought to my attention again today. To me, this song meant about love lost but no regrets. Its a bittersweet feeling. It really is sweet as the feeling of love and being loved and then knowing that this is the end of the road is bitter. I thank this friend of mine for the past 10 months journey where he had been my rock, my listener, my support beam. We went on different path when I wanted something more than he can promise. That broke my heart but it also made me grow up. We had dragged this for far too long, and deep down we both know things would have ended sooner or later. A lot of words we had exchanged, both good and bad, the midnight chats, the tears and laughter we shared, the times when I pour out my frustration and my complains. He made me realized all things are never ideal and will require a huge dose of realism. He made me learn about patience, the meaning of give and take, to understand other people and he was there to catch me whenever I fall. He had journeyed with me the last ten months and we are still the best of friends. You know who you are and you know how much you meant to me this whole time and for the time to come. Thanks for everything~~~~~~~~~!!!

Surprises along the way

Its surprising how things and situation will work out in the end. I used to be very afraid to work with certain groups for their "perceived" high and mighty attitude and how they are so full of themselves at times. But now, I realized that's my one sided perception of things as somehow, the first impression which is the MOST lasting impression might not always be the correct impression. There are some people who are not who they seem to be at first glance. And now, after working with them and actually brainstorming instead of being at each other's throat, I find that they are humans also at the end of the day. Yes, they make mistakes and they might have some wrong doing. What we see at first glance might be one of the off days. My impression was corrected when they actually can sit down with me empathize with me and at the end of it all, we can all joke although we argue like mad over certain business matter 1 hour before. Everytime this happens to me, I get warm fuzzy feeling. It tells me once again, life is not that cruel and heartless at times. The people we meet along the way makes a lot of difference to who we are. It tells me also there is hope for warmth and a sense of togetherness in the cut throat corporate world.

Gone Bonkers

Nothing that I do seems real and right anymore. Going through the motions and going through life as day passes by seems to have overtaken me.I'm literally going through the motions, not questioning the purpose and not even coming close to bother with it anymore. Is this really me? I've gone bonkers just trying to cope with how things are. How things actually worked out to be. I mean, I'm literally not thinking anymore. The stupidest part about all these is the very fact that I feel I can't be bothered anymore. That's not me. And yes, I've gone bonkers trying to pace things through. For now, I just want to rest as I have a bet to win tomorrow.

Life?

The sequence of life is baby, kid, kindergarten, primary school, secondary school, university, work, get married, have kids, die. That's the usual sequence of life and along it will be peppered with sickness, hurt, love, happiness, smiles and all the bittersweet memories of living a life. But what makes our lives different from others? What are the things that differentiates our lifestyle? For me, I don't know what difference I can make on this Earth, however, I'll definitely for sure would want to go to every single inch of this earth. Along my travels, I meet people from different walks of life and its amazing how it all works out for them. I can't say the same for me but I know for sure I would want to live a life of my own without people dictating it and without any prejudice. I don't want to lie on my dying bed and regret things that I should, could, would have done.

Moving Forward

I hope I'm moving forward. I hope moving forward is the right direction. Wherever this new direction may bring me, at the very least I'm liberated and free to do as wish. Regrets? None so far or maybe one or two along the way. However, I've learnt the lesson from it all. So, I'm moving forward, moving on, may it bring me to a new destination and another different experience.

Long Overdue Post

Hi ya, I just got back from a 6 days trip to Krabi, Thailand. It was fun with all the cheap booze, good food, hilarious traveling companion and meeting new people. We stayed one night at Krabi town in a cozy hotel called @Krabi Pura. @Krabi Pura is a wonderful, cozy small hotel where the deco is beautiful. There is a landscaped garden at the back, and the entrance is inviting without the overwhelming feel. The rooms are strategically place to look out to the Mae Nam Krabi (Krabi River). On each floor, there is a landing and balcony which is super inviting to read books while overlooking the Mae Nam and listening to birds chirping. Peaceful~~!!!

Our first stop after depositing our bags were food at Koh Tung Restaurant. Cheap, fresh seafood cooked Thai style with loads of tomyam was the order for the whole entire trip. We decided to go for a longtail boat ride around the mangrove area of Mae Nam Krabi for an hour. Its the first time I sat on a longtail boat and we stopped by at a cave exploring the limestone formation. After that, we decided to walk around the town square just to work off the lunch. The town is quaint and small. We covered it within 2 hours of walking with loads of shopping all the way. We rested our tired legs for 2 hours which I sat at balcony reading my book. I have never felt so at peace with myself. Night time, we walked to the 2 markets for food. I got my thai dessert, Look Choob :) yummy~~!!!!

After a good nightcap with Chivas and chatting with Jan, we left Krabi town via a sawthaeng to Ao Nang. We stayed at Buri Tara Resort at Ao Nang. Its not by the beach and a bit secluded from the busier parts of Ao Nang. Right opposite the hotel is a construction site. I think that pretty much explains the low price of 2000Baht for the 2 nights. Ao Nang has one busy strip of shops by the beach and loads of smaller bars which are pretty dingy. However, booze is really cheap. 100 Baht for cocktails and its Buy 1 Free 1. Oh yes, Pei Jet has found her paradise~~!! At Ao nang, we went kayaking at Ao Thalene for half day with fantastic view of the mangroves, lagoons and monkeys~~!! It was also a fantastic workout for the biceps, triceps and shoulders~~!! It was also a good workout for my legs and butt as there was small distance where water was low and we had to tread through mud while pulling the kayak. Its really an experience. Second day, we went island hopping around the famed Phi Phi Island, snorkeling, sun tanning and basically just plain lazing around.

After another nightcap with Chivas, we packed our bags and head out to Railay Beach. We stayed at Railay Bay. One of the resort that connects Railay West and Railay East. It has a superb view and superb place to sun tan :) Yea, I worked on my tan there. We walked to Phra Nang Beach as well where the famous Phra Nang Cave is. Phra Nang Cave is believed to be the dwelling of a princess goddess (Phra Nang) and the fishermen pay their respects to her with lingam as a form of fertility and creation. Thus, the locals believed that Phra Nang will replenish their catches at sea. After that, we went rock climbing. Rock climbing is famous in Railay because of beautiful limestone creations. We climbed with Tex Rock Climbing School. Our guide, Sing, is a quiet guy but helpful and always ready with a smile.

We spent our last night at Railay East at a bar called Last Bar. They are literally the last bar on the strip. Its a typical beach bar with a very strong Thai influence. There are bamboos floor thatched out from the bar area with floor seatings and if you lie down, you can see beautiful twinkling stars on a clear night. I spent the night with my pina colada staring up at the sky searching for shooting stars. I was hoping to make a wish if there was one. Met up with some backpackers young school leavers from Europe, working folks from all over and almost half of them are working in an Asian country. I always enjoy meeting people like this. You never know what stories they bring and you would never have guessed their experience.

A whole new beginning

I believe that 1st July 2008 signaled a new turning point for me, work wise. I've 2 new bosses which I've always respected and I'm looking forward to working with them. I have no idea how this will work out for me but at least I'm out of the bottom of the dumps. In the end, its just me and I shall have what it takes to make a difference.