He's just not that into you

If any of you read that book, you will have realized that 90% of the men you dated had displayed one or more of the scenario described in the book. If you had watched the movie, then you will realized that there are some instances there that seems like deja vu. How would you know if the guy is really interested or if he is just stringing you along for a good time? Then I suddenly wondered about my own relationships. Have I been dissecting all those small little things and pieced them all up the way I want them to? Am I insecure and not willing to trust the guy I'm with wholeheartedly? Is it really true that if the guy is interested, he will make things happen and make you really happy? I wonder how much of this is true and real in my current relationship?

Age Catching Up...

You will know when age has caught up with you. You would never be able to stay up all night long and still looked fresh the next day. You would never be able to last through 2 hours of gym without complaining of backache and muscle pain. You would never have that superb memory. You will suddenly find yourself with love handles, sagging boobs, fine lines and cellulites. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I'm talking about myself.

I never knew that by the time I'm about to turn 27, I would have to face the reality that I'm old or at least I'm starting to be old. Its amazing that things I'm able to do 1-2 years ago, is now a task and a bloody big hassle to-do and that now, it leaves me breathless. Nowadays with my sleep being a big problem, I just realized how old I've suddenly become. I'm literally a walking zombie without a brain for the past few days. I feel lethargic and I feel slow and my brain wasn't working literally.

And to sum up my decline into old age, I went rock climbing today and while I was belaying a guy twice my size, I flew up when he came down. It has left bruises on my thighs where the harness had made its mark. I have nothing left to say except, the blue black better subside fast before my next waxing appointment. If not, my poor wax-er would have a field time guessing what I had done to deserve such blue blacks at my thighs...

Tired...

I have been having sleepless nights for the longest time. Working out, drinking, tiring myself out just didn't work for me. I just couldn't find the peace and quiet within me to close my eyes and lull my brain just to slow down and shut down. I wonder how long of this I would be able to withstand. Am just physically exhausted now. Where's Mr. Sandman when you need him this badly?

The Road Less Travelled

Die has been cast and I'm taking the road less travelled. I really don't know where this will lead me. But at least, I'm taking up this challenge by the horns. I'm going to deliver my promise. I'm going to make it work, whatever it takes. Life would not just be constant for everyone and I remain the same, in terms of attitude and outlook.