Happy Hours

I used to think that happy hours was a time for relaxation. A breather period before one goes home. I had always enjoy drinking before go home. I can come home relaxed and not so stressed out. Also, I will definitely come home in a not-so-bad mood. Sometimes I leave work feeling angry, angry at how rigid some people can be, how lazy or even how they have practised to be a grand master in Tai-Chi. Sometimes, I get angry with people so defined with their job scope that if they do anything outside of it is considered a violation to them. I'm not a saint when I work, I have my slacking moments, I also have moments of laziness and "delegating" work to others. But sometimes, I do go slightly beyond my job scope and just to work things out. I've done my fair share of work and more and earning a pay along with it. When I first started work in my current company, I used to go home frustrated and angry. I can now be the first to vouch that those feelings are definitely not good for people close to me. I get angry with my parents and my boyfriend whenever I'm pissed off with work. The slightest hint or remark can spark off an anger within me that I didn't know existed. It was a very stressful and trying period then. But now, I've found the wonders of happy hours and long, slow drive home.

I realized alcohol can make me feel relaxed. And I don't get stressed out by the time and reach home. Although, it does leave me with a tummy. But I don't drink that often. But the thought of happy hour need not be just drinking beer. A couple of friends gathering just to talk, chit chat, gossip or even bitching would be as therapeutic as knocking down a couple of beers. I guess in the end, I crave the attention of people and just good conversation. Recently my conversation have been centered around work. At times I had asked myself, is that all to my life, work???? It can't be. What happened to my diving life? What happened to my social life? What happened to my squash and swimming days? The answer was all too obvious and oblivious to me. I had sacrificed all these in the name of work and gave myself excuses along the way.

I had now stop myself, check myself and plan for my next holiday and my next gathering with friends. That's why I had DO-able resolutions this year. I intend to follow them through. I might not get a social life as fantastic or even half as active when I'm in university. But I aim to at least fill my life with things besides work. Work can be all too-consuming but heck, I'm only paid for the 8 hours a day for 5 days. The rest of the time is for me to use, plan and make a meaningful life out of it. In the end, I hope my boss will approve my annual leave~~~~~~~~!!! :p

Lost and Found

I've lost my push up bra. And I'm feeling miserable about it, very very miserable in fact. It feels like I've lost my identity in the process. Some of you might say its just a piece of clothing. But its this one piece of lingerie that defines my femininity. Its a one thing that says I'm a woman and it shows off some womanly curves. Its something that tells me I've grown up. And yes, I only bought it on a wimp after I broke up. But that's a different story. However, by losing my push up I realized that I have in my head an image of trying to be Victoria Beckham. I know I'll never be like that but heck, at least I would find some womanly curves to identify with. But now all is gone, the ONE piece that identified me with Adulthood is missing. Guess there's a damn good reason to go shopping tomorrow.

However, on the upside I went to pasar malam tonight. A night market in Malaysia is like a eating feast. Its something that all Malaysians will go out to at their neighbourhood in search of supper. Its been so long since I went to a pasar malam. The ones I've been to recently has been so commercialized and invaded by Indonesians that I hardly get the thrill of going to pasar malam. But tonight something was different. I went to the pasar malam at Sri Petaling. I've stumbled upon something from the past. I found Yu Yu Ice~~!!! Yu Yu ice was something I had when I was young. It was just flavored ice, there was corn, red beans, laici and sour plum lime. It was so heavenly. It brought back memories when I was young and all I could afford when we go pasar malam was that. It brought back memories of when I was studying in Malacca for a year and it was a weekly must-have item. It was this very flavored ice that brought me back to my childhood memories of a 5 year old holding on to my Aunt's hands and sucking on these flavored ice and thinking it was such heaven. I would eat till my lips turn red and till i get brain freeze. But as I grew older, pasar malam and Yu Yu Ice has not been a favorite place to go to, it has lost its appeal. It wasn't cool and its a hot and sweaty place, it was all replaced by designer coffee and ice cream and air-conditioned area. It was these places that defined my young adulthood, and half of my pay check on it as well.

By now, I've lost a piece of clothing that defines my adulthood and I've found back my childhood innocence with Yu Yu Ice. Maybe I'm just trying to hard to be adult that I've forgotten all these simple pleasures. I guess I shall continue to find my place in this big big world, but on the other hand, I wouldn't forget my simple pleasures.

Happy New Year, 2007~~!!

I've just realized that indeed I do have a blog and my name is Blur Jet. But anyhow, wishing everyone a HAPPY 2007~~~~~!!!!

Let me just take a bit of time to reflect on 2006. I've changed jobs, for the better or worse, I've yet to find that out. Perks are definitely better but my working hours are crazy and not in any way near sane. I've an ended relationship. It was bittersweet right till the very end of it. And I hope we can remain friends as I don't think I can find another guy who knows me as well as him. And my family is doing well. My sisters are OK and my parents are fine and healthy. I've got a naughty nephew who is always crawling around now and asking to be carried. And thank god, I don't look physically ugly or anything like that, although I've like ten pounds to shed but what the heck. I can look past all that. Overall, 2006 was maybe like my relationship. Bittersweet. I wouldn't want it any other way.

On another note, I spend the New Year's countdown staring out of a building on the 21st floor waiting for fire works to start. There is something about fireworks that so captivate me. Maybe because its so beautiful and it doesn't last. Its a split second beauty and sparkle and glow. If you blink once, you will missed it. Like all things beautiful, it doesn't last. Maybe that's why I was so captivated by it and every year, I wouldn't fail to try and capture a glimpse of it. To me, fireworks represent the big bang boom of the arrival of a new year. A new year's celebration wouldn't be complete without it.

Now that 2007 has arrived, its time for me to think of DO-able resolution. Here's my list of resolutions and by 2008 comes, I would like to see which I can hold on to.

1. To do well in my company. I would want to be able to at least achieve 100% of my target and more.

2. To spend more time with family. Take at least 2 saturdays or sundays in a month and bring my parents out.

3. To spend more time with friends. I've made an arrangement with my best friend to meet up at least every saturday for drinks and shopping just to catch up.

4. To go church. This have been a sore point in my life. I haven't made an attempt to go church since 2005. Its time I take this into my hands and make good of it.

5. To spend less. I aim to save at least 20% of my monthly salary... hmmm.. i've yet to achieve this.

6. To have more work life balance. 'Nuff said about this one.

7. To go gym 3 times weekly. I've known to be so lazy that I can't even make it once a week. Time to be healthy

8. To do charity work. I've always wanted to do the pay for a child thingy in a 3rd world country. Guess now its time to pay back the society that taught me.

9. To go on at least 2 dive trips this year. Its high time I visit my dolphins and turtles.

I think that's enough for now. I would always go down the routine of wishing world peace and economic boom. But that's beyond my control. Oh well, what the heck, I wish for world peace and joy to everyone and health and wealth for the new year. Hope 2007 will be a blast~~!!!