Lost and Found

I've lost my push up bra. And I'm feeling miserable about it, very very miserable in fact. It feels like I've lost my identity in the process. Some of you might say its just a piece of clothing. But its this one piece of lingerie that defines my femininity. Its a one thing that says I'm a woman and it shows off some womanly curves. Its something that tells me I've grown up. And yes, I only bought it on a wimp after I broke up. But that's a different story. However, by losing my push up I realized that I have in my head an image of trying to be Victoria Beckham. I know I'll never be like that but heck, at least I would find some womanly curves to identify with. But now all is gone, the ONE piece that identified me with Adulthood is missing. Guess there's a damn good reason to go shopping tomorrow.

However, on the upside I went to pasar malam tonight. A night market in Malaysia is like a eating feast. Its something that all Malaysians will go out to at their neighbourhood in search of supper. Its been so long since I went to a pasar malam. The ones I've been to recently has been so commercialized and invaded by Indonesians that I hardly get the thrill of going to pasar malam. But tonight something was different. I went to the pasar malam at Sri Petaling. I've stumbled upon something from the past. I found Yu Yu Ice~~!!! Yu Yu ice was something I had when I was young. It was just flavored ice, there was corn, red beans, laici and sour plum lime. It was so heavenly. It brought back memories when I was young and all I could afford when we go pasar malam was that. It brought back memories of when I was studying in Malacca for a year and it was a weekly must-have item. It was this very flavored ice that brought me back to my childhood memories of a 5 year old holding on to my Aunt's hands and sucking on these flavored ice and thinking it was such heaven. I would eat till my lips turn red and till i get brain freeze. But as I grew older, pasar malam and Yu Yu Ice has not been a favorite place to go to, it has lost its appeal. It wasn't cool and its a hot and sweaty place, it was all replaced by designer coffee and ice cream and air-conditioned area. It was these places that defined my young adulthood, and half of my pay check on it as well.

By now, I've lost a piece of clothing that defines my adulthood and I've found back my childhood innocence with Yu Yu Ice. Maybe I'm just trying to hard to be adult that I've forgotten all these simple pleasures. I guess I shall continue to find my place in this big big world, but on the other hand, I wouldn't forget my simple pleasures.